Half a Salvation

Constant darkness,
Endless sadness.
Drunken evenings,
Hopeless musings.

Time flies by;
a blur of visions.
Night stretches on;
strapped in the present.

The Neverland I have never reached,
Mocks me at the end of time.
Blazing sirens,
Flashing lights,
Leading me to the Hall of White.

I am here by your decree,
and am now left alone.
Where is my savior,
when I shiver naked in the cold?

Traffic of whispers,
Rush of nerves.
Silent sufferings,
Emptiness burns.

You've rescued me from my lonesome world,
only to throw me back for more.
You've saved me from the Room of Gloom,
only to stop me at the door.

You are half a hero,
half a martyr.
Made me half of a whole.
I feel half-better.

A half-hearted job done on a broken soul.
A half-minded lie repeatedly told.
Do you know that you can never return to whole,
when you give out half-pieces of your soul?

A half of me you call your own.
The other half slowly erodes.
In the consciousness of my half-existence,
May I leave before the end unfolds?

I only want to be saved as a whole,
so I can finally feel complete on my own.
But you have never followed through...
I need you to follow through.

So farewell my half-hero,
our half-destinies have untangled.
Someone somewhere will fill my soul.
I will one day again be whole.